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ok ok i know im posting this kinda late
but wuteva
ok so andrew came to my house
and we were running late
and this picture
is awkward looking.
so we got there like an hour late ^_^
because we couldnt find parking :[
but thats ok.
because they had chocolate spoons
oh yes,
chocolate spoons.
bahaha
so after we ate [ha] we sat around for a long time
bored.
and i took pictures with my cute little asian kimi!
and olena looked hawt
mmm
n me n maria
yay stupid pictures with andrew time!
aww he looks stoned
bahahaha
blurryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
anyway
this blog is gonna be long
and full of dumb pictures
but thats ok.
kaza n caressa!
BLEH
yay
us.
our
table.
because
everyone ditched us XD
cassie the princess! and marissa the.. nun?!
cassie so hawt
and i grab marissa's boob.
haha
yay all of us!
GINGA
JORDI
kazaaaa
in.. the bathroom?!
HAIR
WOOOO YEAH
haha wtf
my hot seniors <3
yayyyyy
&hearts
ok afta prom
hung out in margret's and mary's hotel
fun fun
bahahha mary
and at the pier by andrew's house in the morning
:]
haha
me taking secret pictures
:]
it was fun.
lots of pictures kinda not really
hope you werent
bored?
haha
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Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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was a good day
skipped swing
hung out with andrew
sneak attacked him
kissed him
smiled
when he kissed me back
:]
what are we getting ourselves into?
who knows
but im willing :]
<3
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Monday, February 13th, 2006
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The Worst Day.
ok
so today sucked
major dick.
i kinda dont have close friends in school anymore
because i pissed off kara and malia
and maris going to leave next year
and everyone else really doesnt give a shit about me
^_^
so i ate breakfast.
start of a great day.
F-A-T
every time i tell people how much i weigh i get that shocked expression
its like wow malia you werent lying when you said you were fat
well
yeah.
so PE.
i failed the mile
yet again.
and you know what?
when mr t started talking to me about it
and saying that i was going to fail this quarter
i dont even know why but
i started to get that choked feeling in my throat
and i told myself "no no no god please malia dont let yourself go"
i couldnt even talk to him about it because my voice was so shakey
when he told caressa she had to run with me on wednesday.. i know she didnt want to
i mean great now kara and caressa can make fun of me for another thing
and caressa can find another reason not to like me
i couldnt even open my mouth to tell him "no i dont need her to run with me" because i knew i wouldnt even be able to say it
i thought i was going to break down in front of him
i told myself a long time ago i would never let myself cry in front of people in school
in front of anyone for that matter
im so ashamed of myself
so i waited until everyone went upstairs to change
and i went into the bathroom
into one of our dirty drippy stalls
and sank to the ground
and cried
eyes red, make-up running, that burning tension in my throat finally released
sobs
and no one saw.
when i went upstairs
even though my eyes were red
my make-up smudged
they didnt say anything
attention whore.
thats what i am.
i was feeling down for the whole morning meeting
i told cassie to shut the fuck up for teasing me
i dont think it phased her
i decided i was going to go home after the morning meeting
forgetting that i had to take a test during lunch
there went my lunch period
better.. i stayed in school
ms grems made me tell her what was wrong before english class
so now shes going to run with me
so i can beat my fucking time
and pass stupid PE
wo.
and then
i had to read my essay outloud in english
normally i would have been.. nervous...
or something
but
i didnt care
i was void of all emotion
and i made her cry
drepression
when i saw her
my leaking eyes started watering up
let kara and malia see
let them hear
that im reaching out to them
and that this isnt some ploy for attention
fuck........
and then i ate
i ate so much
snickersmentosmunchiesfatfatfatfatfat
suck it up
after school..
i went to the mall to visit salem and work
because i told her i would
but she wasnt working
because they changed her schedule.
wo.
so i
stuffed taco bell down my throat
well.
i sat at home for the rest of the day.
my fish died.
our new cat scratched my arm.
i ate mac n cheese and two cookies
hows that for trying to loose weight
sick
and then
i tripped over all the pillows and stuffed blankets on the floor in my sisters room
and i fucked up my toe by banging it on the bedpost
and i think its broken.
great.
and i still havent done my math homework.
for our math test thats tomorrow
and i dont understand what we're doing
and to top it all off,
tomorrows valentines day.
<3
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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
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goodbye my friend
love
this is the end.
started as best friends
xHCABx FOREVA
ice palace! we were supposed to buy used xanth books at that book store over there
Diego!!
i was so innocent to you then
a kiss
:] first one together
"i molestashed you"
where did i love you begin
adventures to kapolei every weekend
i dont even do that anymore..
"malia..im moving next week"
i cried
for all of the things i wanted to happen that i knew wouldnt if you did
"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it and I promise you
I promise that I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you?
That I'm in love with you?"
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream...
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone
Alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven
- The Cure
i cried listening to that
when you told me you were leaving
that was the first time i realized
that i loved you.
and thank god...
you didnt have to leave
laughing outside in the rain
"i love you aaron!"
Shallow water cascades the street and slow begins the sink...
Silent rain persuades my feet to thow me to my knees.
Is it here in waist high aquamarine, that i find myself alone?
Can i ask you to craft a submarine, i'm shaking to the bone.
Drowning in your sympathy, can you see i need a raft?
Are you holding you hand out for me?... silly girl... You know i'm made of glass.
As threatening as the waters rage, i could sleep here at the bottom of the sea...
A sea of older age, different agenda's, a different crowd, what could happen to you
has happened to me...
I'm not right for this, I can Barely swim... i need help for myself, but i cant afford to Breath...
i need sight for this, i'm hanging by a limb... i need your help malia... I'm sorry sara would disagree. ...
slowly it had to end
time was running out
tony left.. moved away
your own brother
"i love you" against my neck.. chills down my spine
hesitation
"i... love you too"
"you dont mean it" warm breath
"i do.. i love you so much.. you dont even know"
content sigh
lips curved.. a smile upon the base of my neck.. "i know"
drugs..
i lied.
i let you do them
inside i was screaming for you to stop
innocence.. slowly slipping away
spending the night with you :]
leaving all nagging thoughts behind
i was free
"someday... you'll fall apart the way i put you together..."
nice caption aaron
we used to be friends...
"Well im sorry for the damages, but i've got an abundance of bandages. And it cant be that we're enemies, We even have childhood cartoon chemistry"
ironic that what you wrote about us when our friendship began
i hold on to for support.. to make it through to the end
goodbye
under.. different.. circumstances..
we could have been together
loving me past what was allowed
sleeping next to you as friends... 25 days ago.. not knowing.. where you stood
a soft kiss on the back of my neck as i was falling asleep
"i'll always protect you"
"catch you when i catch you...
hold you while i let you go."
- aaron brown
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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
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| Time: | 1:43 pm. |
| Mood: |  drained. |
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take a step off the path
fall onto a single blade of grass
arch back its cut deep
gasping and grasping
should you be asking?
the dirt road is near
in the distance a carriage grows clear
you watch sheets blow
hear the lifeless notes
expectant of you still
struggling to get up
all eyes upon you waiting for a slip
no support for grip
shadowed backs angled slightly
untrusting relationship
roll off the vast expanse
green life attracted you from the path
naively deceiving
time let it grow
in a second wrecked
dont grieve it, let it go
crawl up onto the same familiar lane
you look down in shame
as rich soil drys to dust
you see the glass frame
supposedly protecting
wheels in your mind realizing
the glass is cracked
blood is running down your back
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Thursday, October 13th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  nerdy. |
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Hang Out Day With Kevin
Friday October 7, 2005
I. Malia A. and Kevin meet up at spot ½ way between houses
A. Catch bus to Kailua
B. Hang out in Kailua
1. Go to Jamba Juice (see Sam) and book store (buy Piers Anthony book) until meeting up with other people
II. Malia W. meets up with Kevin and Malia A.
A. Introductions
1. Malia W. meets Kevin formally
2. Awkward silence
B. Hang out in Kailua until Cassie comes at 7 pm
1. Go to Down To Earth (get kicked out for having Jamba Juice)
2. Go to Malias House
3. Go to Salvation Army
III. Cassie comes at 7 pm
A. Hang out in Kailua more
1. Possibly Price Busters?
a. Yes halloween stuff
b. Buy water guns
2. Go to McDonalds
3. Go to Kailua Elem. to have a water gun fight
a. Malia A pretends to be with Malia W and Cassie but secretly with Kevin
b. Malia W and Kevin trick Malia A
c. Malia A mad at Kevin gives Malia W idea to fill up umbrella to get Kevin’s hair wet (Kevin hair only one not soaked)
d. Malia A then goes back with Kevin
e. Malia W and Cassie have idea to fill up plastic bags as water pouches
f. Malia W tricks Malia A and soaks her with first water pouch
g. Malia A mad and totally sprays Malia W’s ass when she is hiding in tree
h. War
i. While going after Kevin with pouch Malia W falls and eats it majorly in the dirt
j. Malia W pretends to fill up bag to get Malia A but totally soaks Kevin instead
k. Everyone gets Everyone with bags of water including Cassie
l. Everyone soaked
m. Malia W scratches Malia A and Kevin knocks into a pole
n. Group pictures
IV. Go Home
A. Everyone goes home
1. Cassie with Malia W
2. Malia A with Kevin
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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I sit in this hourglass
Sand sifts through the crack
My air supply vanishing
Turning my vision black
Wake up in desert bloom
Each yellow grain turned to seed
The endless rolling dunes
A green vivacious sea
Rare showers spring life
They’ll last for a day
Rich wax coated plants
A dandy-lion weed
Hidden in the colored array
In the end
The land will turn dry
The foliage will die
Thrown back into the sands of time
Clutched in your hands
I’ll be the only thing to survive
Until our time runs out
We’ll hope to quench our thirst
In this ongoing drought
Cracked lips touch a chalice carved from stone
Lavender wine on a parched tongue
Turns to sand and I’ll moan
Fall over in agony
Crying dry tears of despair
Never again will my fingers run through your hair
A timid smile
Dissolves to dust
Carried away by the wind
The last grain has fallen
Buried in the hourglass
I’m forgotten in disgust
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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have we lost intrest
you and i?
the only thread of thought
that came to my mind
grown apart
lost souls unraveling
our clothed hearts frayed
as the needle drops
its lost in warm silver rain
for you sit there drinking
your sapphire wine
the color of your eyes
reflecting the pools of dye
fingers spin designs
on my body, in my mind
and as these lines fall out
this wasnt what we were about
we lived a fantasy
what agony is this?
looking back on this tapestry
i reminisce
two, three, four weeks slow the trend
time has never been our friend
the rip that slowly increases
i can never mend
one day will
STOP
the end.
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Sunday, August 14th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:31 am. |
| Mood: |  flirty. |
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ok well ice palace was where my birthday party was at
yay im 16 now!!!
k well heres some awesome pictures that kara took!
( FIESTA BAA PICTURES )
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Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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well this week i met two new AWESOME people: john and chase
it all started on monday. when chase came over to my house to watch thesis. ahahaa
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Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
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for all you red necks out there
I WENT TO LYNYRD SKYNYRD BUYA!
heres some pictures!
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Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
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so far summers been crazzyyy
not.
but heres what i did so far!
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| Time: | 8:00 pm. |
| Mood: | sick. |
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hehe i stole this from the famous jew jew box heheee
HAVE YOU EVER:
*prank called someone: yes
*been prank called: yes
*fallen asleep in class: mr nelson's class!
*been suspended since first grade: nope
*been expelled: nope
*contemplated suicide: nope
*attempted suicide: nope
*seen someone die: nope
*cut yourself: yes
*slit your wrists: eww my cats do that enough
*flirty eye contacted someone in class: hahahahahahhahahaa yes
*fantasized about someone: duh
*kissed someone elses partner: wait... no?
*had oral sex with someone elses partner: no
*had sex with someone elses partner: no
*trashed a hotel room: nope
*trashed someones home at a house party: hahaha we kinda trashed karas house for her what 14th b-day party? sorry kar kar
*worried about your friends? yes
*had your friends worry about you? i dont know
LAST PERSON YOU:
*told them you loved them: dont remember
*complimented: my cat moonlight
*spoke to on the phone: malia
*got an e-mail from: myspace haha
*spoke to on-line: zach? before my LAPTOP CRASHED
*bitched with: i dont know
*bitched about: my sister prolly
*missed: everyone i couldnt hang out with today because of this cold
*were excited about seeing: were excited? im still kinda excited...about meeting zach? heh i dont know
*wished you could see them more: i wish i could meet him..
*wished you would see them less: sierra... well i wish i could see her never
*fought with verbally: my mom
*fought with physically: my sister (shes 10 and she kicks my ass)
*wanted to kiss: heh diego luna and .... other people
*had sex with: no one.
*wanted to have sex with: heh
*saw: my cat apollo
*swore at: being sick
*laughed at: terry
WHICH FAMOUS PERSON WOULD YOU:
*have sex with: diego luna.... :D
*like to have a philosophical talk about life with: robert plant
*like to have as a best friend: juicebox bandit on myspace
*bring back to life: john lennon
EITHER OR:
*Britney/Christina: christina?
*N.I.N/Marilyn Manson: erm...nin
*Blink 182/Jimmy Eat World: jimmy eat world... ?
*Sepultura/Soulfly: asl;dfk;ls'dfk i dont know
*Incubus/Deftones: incubus!
*Linkin Park/Limp Bizkit: i dont like either or
*Papa Roach/Alien Ant Farm: alien ant farm
*The Ataris/The Vandals: who?
*No Doubt/Snake River Conspiracy: no doubt
*Disturbed/Mudvayne: wtf
*Rancid/The Clash: the clash no shit
*Coal Chamber/Smashing Pumpkins: smashing pumpkins
*Kurt Cobain/Elvis : kurt cobain
AND FINALLY....
*Classical/Pop: classical
*Punk/Ska: punk
*Black/industrial: whats black?
*Emo/Indie: indie
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?
moracco
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?
i dont care
3. WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT?
hmm... i dont remember
4. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
with me buddies
5. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
stuck at home when everyone else is out doing something
7. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY?
strong in mind
8. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
whenever
9. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?
sporks! and a toaster oven
10 . WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY?
when my mom yells at me over my sister or over something stupid and pointless and then she yells about me to someone else infront of me
11. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
guitar
12. FAVORITE COLOR?
green and brown... or that really dark red color...
13. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR or SUV?
sports car
14. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE?
yes
16. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
fall... on the mainland... cuz you know here in hawaii we only have two seasons
17. WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE?
VACUUMING
18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPERPOWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
travel in time
19. IF YOU HAD (for the next 10 days) A TATTOO, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
id rather have another ear piercing or something
20. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
only up to two!
21. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK WITH?
my dogs
22. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
my birthday
23. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
i dont have a car...
24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER A HAMBURGER OR SUSHI?
sushi duh
25. FAVORITE FLOWERS?
no ones ever gotten me flowers so i wouldnt know
ok yeah so that was exciting
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ok well its the second day of summer and im bored as hell. and its a saturday night. and im sitting at home. on the computer.
Body:
FIRSTS
First Best friend: maria icantspellherlastname
First screen name: pineapplehead221
First self purchased CD: queen greatest hits vol 1
First pets: macka, blackie, sapphire
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First musician you remember hearing in your house: van morrison
LASTS
Last cigarette: never
Last car ride: coming home from work
Last good cry: thursday night... man it was a good cry oh wait then i cried on friday morning for the same reason
Last library book checked out: i lost my library card... heh i dont remember
Last movie seen: DIRTY DANCING HAVANA NIGHTS (diego lunas so hot)
Last beverage drank: root beer
Last food consumed: bread, tomatoes, cheese
Last phone call: kara
Last time showered: today at like 5
Last shoes worn: my chucks............................
Last cd played: gun's n roses greatest hits
Last item bought: big red gum
Last annoyance: my sister
Last shirt worn: its a tank top... does that count?
Last website visited: myspace (haha)
Last word/s you said: "i dunno"
Last song you sang: damn the radio is on... space cowboy by the steve miller band XD
What color socks are you wearing? im not wearing socks... but i was like 10 minutes ago... they were pink with rainbow stripes
What color of underwear are you wearing? dark blue
What's under your bed? my yearbook lol
What time did you wake up today? 9:07
Where do you want to go? out of my house
What is your career going to be? i have no idea kara says im gonna be a librarian
Where are you going to live? oregon, washington, new york
What kind of car(s): no idea
.CURRENT .
Current mood: pissed my mom is yelling again
Current annoyance: my bitch sister
Current music: the radio
Current taste: gum
Current hair: black
Current clothes: tank top and shorts
Current color of toenails: brown
(x) - you've done
(_) - you haven't done
(_) been drunk
(_) been high
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(_) been dumped
(_) been fired or laid off
(_) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(_) skipped school
(x) been married
(x) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die.
(_) been to Africa.
(_) Punched a friend
(x) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a concert
(x) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(_) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now
wow that was really exciting. not.
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ok so we were hippies today for our project... lets just say things got a little out of hand...
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this weekend sucked. went to the mall after school friday. thought we'd do something. but we didnt. ended up watching kyle and ryan kick my cake around. then malia and i went to the 30 hour famine. pierce came and left. and came and left. i watched buffy for the first time. i dont like buffy and i dont like angel but willow is cool. talk about bad acting ahaha.
saturday malia and i went to work. then we came back. and we watched part of the led zeppelin dvd. :D bleh then after the famine thing i went home. and did nothing. and cried. and felt sorry for my self. and made cookies. and felt sick.
sunday i had to wake up early to go to church.. it was boring.... we skipped half of the the second service ahaha funny and pierce insulted my hair oh well that ass. like his hair is better. at least i have a chin!
ok well heres what went down on thursday!!!!!!!
kyle and ryan came to kailua. came to my house. were scared of my sister. and left. then bobby came. ripped kara's drawing that kyle made for her. and ate cake.
our pokemon cake... the other one tasted better...
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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:25 pm. |
| Mood: | bored. |
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hey what am i doing right now? well i am sitting outside of mr tam's room w kara and michelle looking at random livejournals and reading the entries because we are all very bored.
oh yeah im singing phantom of the opera the part kara doesnt like to annoy her.
kyle is hot.
its not fair.
WHY AM I NOT ASIAN?! :'(
so kara played guitar and we both sang songs for yazy. too bad i cant sing. thats what we did in lunch. how exciting.
here comes mari and gian so i guess i will update one day later on.....
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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kwillett's journal
accomplished.
contemplative.
lazy.
awake.
angry.